Things since school started

So I have been sick lately. I have been getting really dizzy and about to pass out. I also have been having back spasms a lot and it is hard to march. Our first band contest is on september 9th. I can't wait but we still have to get movement three down. We always forget the last few sets. What makes me mad is the guard always puts their stuff in the way of my sets so I always hit them. Aww well my saxaphone is a school horn anyway. Its been weird not having a boyfriend but I am happy the way my life is (well almost anyway). My mom is threatening suicide and she won't listen to me to tell her how I feel about it. School is really hard but I do plan on graduating on time even if it kills me. Some awkward moments I have had are at band on thursdaty night I saw my ex boyfriend while trying to run with my nephew and then later he saw me by the water fountain and he said hi, and then today he showed up at band again and I asked his mom is she would take me home and she said she would. Then on the way to my sisters house to babysit I was sitting in the back seat with Chris and Charles and Chris were debating on the playstation 2 and the xbox 360. And then they said that Chris spends to much time with his girlfriend and that they don't do anything and then Chris replies well you and Amanda did stuff when you two were dating. Those were two awkward moments that I have encountered and they are only weird because I have not talked to him in person since the breakup. In fact we have hardly talked at all since the emails that were sent after the breakup. I miss him so much and I still love him. My life is different from before and I hope one day we will get back together.